A little bit about me.
My mood changes constantly from high to low and I battle to stick to one emotion or topic so its hard for me to really express myself. I don’t have a stutter problem but my mind flicks through different topics and emotions so quickly that I can’t convey the message properly. I hate it but I’m slowly training myself to relax, breathe and slowly articulate what I want to say. I write a bit better than I talk.
So my name is Mannie. Its a nickname I was given by my mom when I was a child. Legend has it 😉 that I used to call myself “the man” and so my mom gave me a diminutive version of it and the name stuck throughout the years. I have two older brothers and two younger sisters whom I get along with very well. My mom and dad are divorced and we don’t see much of my father. In fact he is currently in jail serving a fifteen year sentence.
My childhood was stolen from me, so was my teenage years. I started drinking and smoking from the age of 13 and from there I tumbled deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole. Light faded quickly and I was caught up in sex and drugs, bars and clubs. I hated myself and despised the world I was in, but I couldn’t get out. I waited and waited, hoping things will just come right by itself, but it never did.
For 18 years I was depressed and absolutely lost, certain to never find happiness and I should accept that this is how its going be for the rest of my life.
I then made the decision, in 2015 I went below the surface, into the darkest corners of my soul, to seek out my demons one by one, and with the help of God I’m going to kill them all.
I surfaced in 2018 and I want to tell you my story.
Dear Diary is where I reflect on the past and the present. My daily journal. It is where you will learn the vast inner world of my mind and the thoughts that shape me. You’ll see that I as a christian man get angry too, I get frustrated and sad and sometimes I don’t want to see the bigger picture.
Travel & Food section is of the places I visited and the wonderful times I had there. I will suggest things to do or just tell the story of my trip. Traveling is fun and exciting and I recommend it to everyone. I’m a terrible cook but nevertheless I will show you the meals I’ve had and the must tries of some restaurants.
Spearfishing Adventures is a proud display 🙂 of all my catches and the tale behind them.
I am The Wayfarer an angry bull in an evening sky, and this is my blog.